Trust the Wait


Ask Sean what one of my worst qualities are.  He'd say: Nothing.  She is perfect.  Is what he would say in a perfectly perfect world where everyone, including you and me, would be perfectly perfect.  Okay, joking aside, what he'd really say is: Her lack of patience.  And I would smile, nod my head and agree without a hint of disdain towards his answer.  Okay, maybe just a little secretly annoyed at his right-minded honesty.  But he'd be right.  As long as I can remember, my worst quality was and is my lack of patience. 

In the beginning stages of my photography business, I had zero inquiries, zero clients, zero leads.  I questioned my skills and wondered if my vision and dreams were too unrealistic.  Maybe I was wrong about everything.  Maybe I am not good at this.  Maybe this was a sign that photography + me were not meant to be.  Maybe all my friends and family members were encouraging me out of pity. 

The other week, I childlishly plopped down on the couch, released an over-dramatic sigh of discouragement.  Sean was concerned and sat down next to me and asked what was wrong.  I told him that I felt the business had plateaued.  I told him I felt I was exhausting my marketing efforts and that my time had been wasted.  He seemed confused and corrected me.  But you are getting somewhere.  You now have clients.  These things take time.  And he was right.  I did have clients, so what was my problem?  I used to have zero inquiries.  Now I have some.  I used to have zero clients.  Now I have some.  I used to have zero leads.  Now I have many.  I let my impatience get the best of me and allowed it to overshadow the successes of my business.  I focused on what I didn't have versus what I did have.  All it took was a little reminder from someone with more patience than I will ever have.  Thanks, Sean.  

I don't write these blogs for the sole purpose of preaching to others on how they should be, what they should do.  I do it because it is a reminder to myself.  A reminder that there will be days that are harder than others and that success does not come over night.  A reminder to myself that nothing comes easy.  A reminder that I should be grateful because I once had nothing.  A reminder that I should trust the wait, embrace the uncertainty, and the beauty of becoming.  Because when nothing is certain, everything is possible. 

Thanks for reading!
Hannah Q.