I wasn't exactly the cutest kid growing up. I had big buck teeth with a huge gap. I was always much shorter, smaller, and petite compared to my classmates. I was flat-chested up until my junior year of high school. I had an eye condition where one eye was bigger than the other (I think from a bug bite as a toddler, not sure).
And the kids around me never failed to remind me of my insecurities. Kids are so brutal and the effects of their honesty everlasting. As I got older, the teasing went away but my insecurities compounded. I let society mold my perceptions of ideal beauty which made me think anything other than the 'ideal beauty' was not beautiful at all. It wasn't until after college that I learned to be comfortable in my own skin. After entering into the military, I began focusing on the important things and reality. After traveling the world and meeting a myriad of people and personalities, my idea of beauty shifted. I found beauty in all sizes, shapes, color, personalities. Inner beauty and confidence--the most beautiful of them all.
By no means am I saying I'm perfect. I'm not even saying that the ideal beauty isn't beautiful. It most certainly is. Wide shoulders? Beautiful. Big thighs? Beautiful. Thigh gap? Beautiful. Short legs? Beautiful. Fake boobs? Beautiful. Real boobs? Beautiful. What I am saying is that I have learned to unapologetically be myself and to embrace my perfect imperfections. I've learned to love my body and am so grateful that I've found peace with it. Like all humans, I still have insecurities but I am working on it.
I wanted to specialize in boudoir photography because of my personal experiences. I want to help women embrace their beauty that is seen from their eyes rather than the eyes of our society and culture. I also do my best not to edit out any scars, beauty marks, skin, etc., because I feel those imperfections are a part of who we are. The model in this photoshoot is not a real model (but she should be!). She's a co-worker of mine that is smart, intelligent, kind, driven, and someone that I've always admired for having as much inner beauty as she has outer beauty.