Happy One-Year Anniversary, To Me

Photo Credit: Sean Quintana

Photo Credit: Sean Quintana

It has been one whole year since I separated from the Air Force.  Well...technically one year and one month but who's counting?  No really.  I really did forget to count.

Southbay Wedding Photographer

Last year, I wrote this blog post on the date of my separation.  After revisiting this post, I can remember exactly what I was feeling at the time just by looking at my photo.  It was the last time I'd ever wear my military uniform so I asked Sean to take a photo of me in it for the sake of my memories.  I had waited so many years for that day and I imagined tossing away my uniform would be like tossing away the hindrance to my pursuit of curiosity.  When the time came, my reluctance baffled me.  It felt like I had given away a part of my identify.  In my uniform, I knew exactly who I was and what I was supposed to do.  Without it?  No clue.  The feeling of freedom was refreshing, but it was thrashed around by my fear, doubt, and anxiety of the unknown.  I was determined and driven but I didn't know where I was headed.  All I knew was that everything I wanted was on the other side of fear.  

My first year as a civilian has been full of ebbs and flows.  I thought turning your passions into a profitable business was a pathetic dream that everyone longed for but only a few achieved.  But I finally put my excuses and fears aside and gave in to my wildest dreams.  Here I am--one year later.  And I know exactly who I am.  I'm a lover, a dreamer, a go-getter, a hustler--the owner and creative behind my very own photography business.  Some days I succeed and other days I fail.  Every day I'm imperfect.  But every day I'm learning and cultivating my passions. 

South Bay Wedding Photographer in Hermosa Beach and Manhattan Beach

My uniform is tucked away in my closet to serve as a beautiful reminder of my days in the Air Force.  A reminder that those years were never wasted or never a hindrance to pursuing my passions, but a light that led me to where I am today.  For those of you who are ever overwhlemed with impatience or uncertainty, here is a quote that helped me: Trust the wait, embrace the uncertainty, and anticipate the beauty of becoming.  When nothing is certain, everything is possible.

Thanks for reading!
Hannah Q.