Happy One-Year Anniversary, To Me
It has been one whole year since I separated from the Air Force. Well...technically one year and one month but who's counting? No really. I really did forget to count.
Last year, I wrote this blog post on the date of my separation. After revisiting this post, I can remember exactly what I was feeling at the time just by looking at my photo. It was the last time I'd ever wear my military uniform so I asked Sean to take a photo of me in it for the sake of my memories. I had waited so many years for that day and I imagined tossing away my uniform would be like tossing away the hindrance to my pursuit of curiosity. When the time came, my reluctance baffled me. It felt like I had given away a part of my identify. In my uniform, I knew exactly who I was and what I was supposed to do. Without it? No clue. The feeling of freedom was refreshing, but it was thrashed around by my fear, doubt, and anxiety of the unknown. I was determined and driven but I didn't know where I was headed. All I knew was that everything I wanted was on the other side of fear.
My first year as a civilian has been full of ebbs and flows. I thought turning your passions into a profitable business was a pathetic dream that everyone longed for but only a few achieved. But I finally put my excuses and fears aside and gave in to my wildest dreams. Here I am--one year later. And I know exactly who I am. I'm a lover, a dreamer, a go-getter, a hustler--the owner and creative behind my very own photography business. Some days I succeed and other days I fail. Every day I'm imperfect. But every day I'm learning and cultivating my passions.
My uniform is tucked away in my closet to serve as a beautiful reminder of my days in the Air Force. A reminder that those years were never wasted or never a hindrance to pursuing my passions, but a light that led me to where I am today. For those of you who are ever overwhlemed with impatience or uncertainty, here is a quote that helped me: Trust the wait, embrace the uncertainty, and anticipate the beauty of becoming. When nothing is certain, everything is possible.
Thanks for reading!